decipher reflections from reality. [quest/private]
Oct 19, 2012 7:53:56 GMT -8
Post by daisy on Oct 19, 2012 7:53:56 GMT -8
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Apparently, the darkness of my loss of conciousness compared nothing to the black of my time after awakening. I thought i was strong. I thought i'd seen it all, endured everything that could be asked of me. But i was wrong. Wrong about so much. The bullying, the violence, the degrading; i'd experienced that all my life. That was nothing. But the pain... I raised my hands, they hadn't stopped shaking for days now. At least the feeling in my fingers had slipped from excruciating to simply throbbing.
I coughed dully, dry and choking. It hurt. Everything hurt. How could i still be alive when it hurt so much? It made me think of you. When i'd started relating pain to you, i couldn't say. But everytime they hurt me, i imagined your back. The part of you i remembered best, since it turned on me. And god did they hurt me. If i had any feeling in my fingers, i knew i'd be able to trace scars across most of my flesh. I once had lovely skin. Soft, moisturised. I used to smell nice too. Roses and jasmine, i think. Maybe lily of the valley.
I couldn't begin to assess the damage. The one grace my stolen beauty had left me was numbness. The more they took, the less i felt. But when i'd watched my hair, dropping before my eyes... It was so blonde. So beautiful. And it was gone. Everything was gone. I hadn't a shred of pride left. Not an ounce of glamour or ambition. I was no longer Coco. What... what did she call me? So long ago now - my real name. I... I couldn't remember. Perhaps i didn't deserve a name. Perhaps they'd stolen that too.
I heard the noise as if from far away. From underwater. The shudder of my world. They'd come to take me again. My scruffy head looked up, slowly, my eyes, puffy from crying and bruising, opening ever so slightly to observe my tormentors. His words didn't make sense. I was... worth something? Release? ...Akira? I opened my mouth, cracked lips, dry with blood, and i tried to speak. I tried to make a sound other than screaming.
"I'm.......free?"
I smiled. I was so sure i'd forgotten how to. A rasping, hacking noise tickled my throat, growing louder and more painful. I began to laugh.
"H-how... fabulous."
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