Lost Memories [P]

[Kaeor]

Flashback

'I don't believe it...'

The steel gates of Kumogakure remained in front of my own eyes. I was unable to do much but pause in quiet disbelief. Never in the months that had passed did I find myself coming back home so soon. To be honest, I didn't believe that I was going to come back home at all. My frame was weary and in need of a relaxing shower after everything I had been through. Quietly, I bounded forward with the thought of a single woman on my mind - Areru. She had been the only thing of importance that I had managed to leave behind and my heart remained trouble during the month without her. If everything was to that which I suspected, then Blanche should've delivered news that the surgery needed could finally be complete and that I was in no state to travel. All would fully have encompassed a entire week ago as I continued to drag my feet down the dainty empty streets of the land.

In the numerous days of my absence, I could see that quite a lot had changed in Kumogakure. It was almost as if life for me stopped as everything continued to remain still. It was something that I was unfortunate enough to experience. But the street that I paced down was one that I had rarely walked through. The insignia of the Sansutomu clan had been etched in the middle of the street of their own area. Even after all this time, I still could remember the place where Areru lived with her parents. Still, I needed to know that her surgery had went fine and most of all where her heart lay, even if that meant braving her usually aggressive family.

So upon the doorstep of her family, I'd knock thrice as I awaited on an answer.

"It's Kaeor."

I firmly stated. And just like that I was no longer a ghost.

[Areru]

FLASHBACK!

Had it not been for two of my four brothers who rose up at the knock of the door, I wouldn’t have been aware that anything was currently happening. It had been but a day or so since whatever procedure had taken place and now; Although I felt better, I was still drained, and with my thin form splayed out on the sofa that I knew too well and with my father and my two other brothers still sitting elsewhere in the room, it was very much clear to others that I felt tired as well- The instinct to nurture and protect the youngest, no matter what rank I attained, in their eyes I was still a baby- And that surely wouldn’t’ change just yet. With a blanket of a dark green colour covering my clothed form I’d rest with eyes half-open, simply listening to whatever was happening at the door with ears that, too, felt as if they were falling to sleep- I wanted to sleep- But with guard dogs around the clock 24/7 sometimes that was quite hard.

"It's Kaeor."
”Hey dickwad- Where the fuck have you been? Do you know how long you’ve been gone?”

I hadn’t been able to pick up exactly what the person at the door had been speaking, but with my brothers brash attitude, it was obviously someone that they weren’t too keen on- With my eyes failing me I’d close them fully for the next few minutes as I listened to my brother openly sling insults and threats towards whomever was at the door- Usually I’d have gone up and apologized for his behaviour, but at the moment frankly, I couldn’t be bothered. ”..Do something like this again and we’ll sort you out- You know that? You know how many of us are in this fucking village you prick? Fuck off.” It was getting a little bit too much for my innocent ears and I’d slowly peel myself off the sofa with the blanket still wrapped around my being and shiver a little bit as my feet touched the floor, making my way towards the door to see the hulking figures of my two older brothers- Nothing new.

Pushing through, simply my touch caused them to back off a little bit, as I rammed my hands between their shoulders to allow myself entry to see who was the- ”..Kaeor?!” he’d been gone a month- And more- Was it really him!? Studying both his expression and appearance for a few moments it was safe to say that he looked shattered from whatever he’d been doing for the amount of time that he’d been away from us- Away from me. Pushing past my brothers fully, I’d then, the blanket dropping off me in the meantime, greet him with a very promising kiss as my arms, although slightly heavy at the time being, wrapped around his form with ease. There was little to say in this moment and there wasn’t all that much I could hear- The tsch’s and eugh’s from my brothers discarded from my mind as I concentrated on more important matters- Still plastered to him I’d soon release my grip and the welcoming kiss that I’d given him, my eyes- A brilliant blue at this point staring right back at him- I had to see him fully- Was he hurt? I didn’t know- I had to find out.

”Just because she likes you doesn’t put you off the hook.” Hearing this I’d then grin somewhat and then bury my head deep in to his neck before then once more releasing, and moving back a few inches- But our forms still so close that my breath- Hastened from seeing him, was hot on his skin. ”K-kaeor! Where did you go?.. Are you alright..!?” I’d ask with a very worried expression on my face- It was only natural for me to do so, wasn’t it? He’d been gone for ages- And the only thing that told me he was alright was the soft words of the blonde haired medic which had performed most of whatever surgical procedure that had been used on me. I remembered a lot from it. Looking over his figure again to see if there was anything wrong the only visible problem I could see was that he looked pretty tired. Ushering for my brothers to move back I’d guide him in to the house, with the command; ”Lie down.” seeping from my mouth, indicating to the sofa which I had previously been catnapping on.

I needed to know everything.

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[Kaeor]

And as the door before me opened, I became blind so to say. Blind to whatever lurked behind it and the nonsense that the two brothers babbled about before me. Usually the unison of their constant jeering and threats irritated me to the highest power. I believed that Blanche had ducked out of our promise seeing them hurl insult after insult at me. She would've told them of how I got her the surgery she needed wouldn't she?

I stood there with their insults bouncing off of my frame even though my heart was hardened to their words. It wasn't until that the two parted and a smaller more beautiful figure slipped in that I received life.

"Areru?"

On sight of her the words had been forced out of my mouth without much thought if any placed into it. It wasn't until her voice reached out to beckon my name that I understood that it was truly her. A sense of elation came over me as she dashed forward with extreme happiness. To be quite frank once her lips pressed against mine, that was the only life that I ever wanted inside of me. The scoffs of her brothers were completely ignored in the arms of her acceptance.

"I'm alive." That was the only real comment of worth that I could give her as I looked at her. The time that I had been away from her was far from cordial to me. With Areru leading the way I'd listen to her almost like some lost battered puppy, my heart finally able to rest at her sight.

"Before anything, I need to know - Did Blanche come through?" I stammered weakly, hoping to know she had been freed of her illness.

[Areru]

It was such a relief to see him.

Alive was one thing, as he said, but to at least appear as if he had been unharmed was another, and I was genuinely thankful because of that. As my pale hands took ahold of his left wrist I’d keep drawing him in to the room- However, thinking about my past movements I’d soon figure that it would be best to move up to my room- It wasn’t as if I didn’t want to speak to him in front of my family, it was just that I didn’t want them constantly glaring at him throuought whatever conversation we’d be initiating. Although we’d spent months apart- It felt like years- Although what made me happiest was knowing that he had come back, and come back to me. Continuing to hold his wrist I’d almost drag him towards the stairs, motioning to come upstairs. And despite all this- I was trying my best to be gentle with him. Looking over at him as he spoke of her- I’d open my mouth but pause for a few moments, looking down, then to the side, and back towards Kaeor as I’d begin to scale the stairs.

"Before anything, I need to know - Did Blanche come through?"

It wasn’t as if anything bad had happened, but the worry in his words had caused me to blush ever so slightly as my porcelain-like cheeks soon stained with a very soft red. I would then pause again- Thinking of what to say before I was to speak; ”..Yeah.” through the last week or so I’d been in the most unimaginable pain- I’d been used to pain for the majority of my life through the burden which I’d been carrying so heavily on my feeble back, however I’d have never guessed that the process of removing such a problem would come with such a price. My mind was still a bit hazy after the whole procedure but I could remember faintly a few things- A beautiful blonde medic who spoke with words so soft one would have easily missed them, and the numb pain that had pulsated through my body- Which was, to a small degree, still circulating in my system- I was feeling much better now, but still a little bit out of tune.

However The effects of it? I could loosely remember her telling me about it and why Kaeor had been gone but only a few bits I could remember, but I was sure that’d come to me- But I was fully aware that it was his doing- The reason why the blonde had come to the village, the reason why this had happened- Everything. Looking back at the milky-eyed figure that I was leading up to my room; My intents were but innocent- I wanted to speak about this- Speak about why he’d been gone without my family butting in and threatening to rip his arms and legs off. There was one thing I was sure of, and that was my brothers and their fierceness. With the procedure I’d been given and the words that Blanche had so carefully spoken to me, I was promised that whatever problem that had plagued me since birth would be gone. I aimed to match the ferocity of my brothers.

Soon approaching the door of my bedroom I’d push it open, the scent of air freshener coming to my nose as I moved to the center- It was a pretty small room but it was big enough for me. With the blanket in my other hand I’d climb to the back end of the bed, as my bare blue eyes looked at Kaeor, almost as if I was attempting to see if this was some kind of trick or not- He was back- And I was happier than ever, but all I could think of right now was what he’d divulge to me in regards to what he had been doing exactly. ”I’m fine- Just a bit sore but we can’t all be that lucky can we.” I was cured- That was the truth, or as far as Blanche herself had told me, and I was entirely thankful to the both of them- Although there was still something small itching at the back of my mind that I couldn’t exactly place my finger on. However- Disregarding that, I’d await for his presence to approach me once more, as I waited answers.

”..Thank you; Kaeor..” I daren’t make eye contact whilst saying this to him, although once said shy blue eyes would once more creep up and fix their gaze on his own- I had missed them over the past month. I was thankful for him to securing this procedure but- I felt bad- I was officially in debt to him. For a lifetime.

”..I love you.
A smile.

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[Kaeor]

She did it.

The quiet response by Areru would indicate that the Kusagakure ninja had kept her word. It was with relief and a ease of heart that I listened to Areru now, everything a tad bit less serious. Even in her home I could feel the prying eyes of her family beaming into my back. They had to be waiting for a opening so they could say something towards me. So it didn't come by any surprise that I realized that I was voyaging up the stairs, obviously towards Areru's room. Once we made it to her room my body would nimbly move to the edge of her bed as she crawled to the very back. I still was a bit uneasy and tired even though I was back in my home village. Silently, my fingers danced through my hair in a perfectly combing manner as she thanked me. It was a unnecessary action that just caused me to smile at how mannered she was. I would've done this no matter what.

”..I love you."

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My milky white eyes turned towards her as she released her emotions to me. I couldn't do anything but simply become a parrot and repeat the same words. But unlike a parrot, I held the same emotion that she had in regard for me. "I love you too." I whispered to her. It was after those words that I scooted myself from the edge of the bed and became close to her, side by side to be exact. I'd take a deep breathe while unraveling my thoughts and how I'd inform her of everything that happened.

And so after a few moments, I'd tell her about how I met Soratsu and Blanche on the docks and their offers that came with it. I'd tell her about the war that transpired between Kirigakure and Sunagakure with Soratsu reigning superior in the end. I'd tell her about my injuries and how I was in no shape to come back and see her with Blanche. But in the end, I'd make sure to tell her that I was glad to be beside her right now.
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[Areru]

As my brothers no doubt cursed his name downstairs, I was up here with him in my company, as the both of us sat in tranquil silence for a few moments before the news about what had happened in detail would be revealed to me. I craved for moments like these, and over the past month where I hadn’t even his face I was reminded of the things that I had taken for granted over the time that I’d been with him- Simply seeing him and the unruly hair that he sported, the vivid white of them- The way that he reserved his gentler side for me only, along with several other traits which I’d picked up on over the past few months- And which I had noticed moreso during his leave. I guess that it really was true that you learned to value what you had when you lost it- Of course I hadn’t lost him but leaving him for an amount of time such as the amout he’d bee gone- It was something that I hadn’t been through before, and I was more than happy to not experience it again, thank you very much.

My words were repeated by him and I savoured them as he sat close to me, my hand tilting instinctively towards him. Due to his taller height I’d find it leaning against him, as his body- Although cold from being outside for so long, would surely find warmth as the right side of my face pressed against his neck. With the heating on and my brothers fully aware of his presence I wouldn’t care if they wanted to kick him out for tonight- If they wanted to do it, then they’d find me closely following him out the house, and I KNEW they would never risk that. Closing my eyes and simply breathing, it was the first time in a while that I had truly felt at peace. ”..I’m glad you’re back.” I’d say, gently above a whisper as a warm smile would lace the pale lips on my face as I’d then tune in to the words that he now spoke, listening to his story.

..And it was quite a quest, as it seemed- As a child I’d always been read stories about princesses by my father and older brothers who droned on, uninterested, although they tried to make things more animated for my sake- And this reminded me perfectly of it. My prince had saved me and had now returned home after his valiant journey across countries, it was picture-perfect and surely a tale to tell the younger generation should such a strange thing happen to the both of us! My hand then shifting a little bit and finding his own, I’d bring my other forwards as well, cupping his left hand in mine as I listened intensely. Of course; I worried about him, there was no way I couldn’t have done so, but at the same time I knew that he’d have been alright, although I couldn’t hide the fact that I felt so guilty for him having to go through all that trouble for me. Of course our relationship was stable, I knew that- But I owed him my life. Literally. There was so much that I owed him by now.

”Kaeor- I’m sorry you had to go through so much trouble.
I’ll make it up to you one day; I swear. But for now;

..Get some sleep.” a grin. "You look like hell."

I’d say this, his fatigue obvious on his face and how he described his journey home- With a honest smile still fixed on my face I’d then unwrap the blanket from my form, casually dressed in average pyjama attire, and then cover the majority of his body with it, in some ways treating him as if he was a child, but in another; Just making sure that he got the sleep that he seemed he so desperately needed. Planting several kisses on his face; One on his forehead and the other on his nose, I’d then draw back once more and rise from my position in order to loosen the sheets beneath me so that he could shuffle in. Of course; Being my room after all it was a single bed and seeing as Kaeor was much different to me as far as physique went, I knew that he’d be the only one sleeping comfortably tonight but- Frankly, I didn’t care. I’d sleep in the verge of a cliff if it meant his safety, health and warmth was secured.

”..Welcome home.”

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[Kaeor]

I couldn't have asked for a better response of Areru. I had expected a classic display of waterworks, but I felt more than content that my shirt would remain dry. The way she remained so attentive to my story encouraged me to tell all of it, deciding not to shorthand any one segment. It felt like forever had lapsed between the moment I began and finished the story. She promised me once more to make up everything but to be reasonable I doubted there would be the equivalent of such an adventure I went through. Simultaneously there was no need or desire to place her in such a position. But I just continued to beam towards her and found myself relaxing in her presence. "Don't worry. We'll be fine..." I finally exclaimed. I had transitioned from a man of peace into a temporary war hawk. It wasn't something even I could predict would happen.

Listening to her final words my body fitted itself into her bed. My arm outstretched in essence to hold her. Everything I wanted and worked for was beneath my arm. It was about time that I reacquired her. And now it was time for the weary to receive rest. In a few minutes I would collapse into a quiet slumber, the heat of Areru providing more comfort than I thought I'd receive.

...

And I quickly lifted my body. Beads of sweat nearly drenched my body. My mind had been assaulted by that of the past thoughts. It was a given that my first night of peaceful rest would be haunted, but not like this. The bone chilling dreams had caught me while I was vulnerable. My head turned to see Areru still fast asleep and to the best of my ability I'd rise and head to her bathroom. Taking off my wet clothing, I'd turn on the light and find myself splashing water on my face.

'Ugh.'

It would all pass in due time. And by due time I hoped now.

[Areru]

"Don't worry. We'll be fine..."

Perhaps it was those words which had worried me somewhat- But I’d never really been quite a person to worry about things so it was quite astounding to say the least. But moreso- In the time that he’d been away, I’d heard, in newspapers, on the TV and through spoken word that our village- Our world was slowly tumbling in to turmoil as word of a second shinobi war was brought up. Of course during his leave and by hearing the stories that circulated around the village I could but think the worst about him- That perhaps he’d been unluckily caught up in some kind of brawl and had been killed in the heat of battle- But I trusted him not to die- Or not to die on me anyhow. But he’d come back safely, if not surely scarred by the things that he’d been through recently, and as his hand descended I found my head placed on his chest, as I inched closer to him- It being a single bed it was hard enough to fit two people on it, but thankfully for the fact that I had quite a slender frame, I took up little to no space, and found rest after he found a comfortable place to do so himself. He was back.

Of course, unlike my counterpart I was unable to sleep so soundly as he appeared to do so- Or at least for the first thirty minutes I simply lay in bed, relaying the stories which he’d told me through my mind, attempting to put myself in his shoes in those situations, and trying to bring them to light- To have an illustrated idea of what happened. Of course I still felt such a sense of guilt for my own problems having driven him out there in order to get them fixed- But in the end he’d succeeded and I’d never been more gracious to him- Although I figured that he’d not ask for much in return I knew that one of these days I’d do something so important that it would equal the gift that he had given to me so uncalled for. I knew it- Although I wasn’t as strong as him- Nor was I as tall or as built with muscle, I had determination- And a hell of a lot of it- And there wasn’t getting rid of that easily.

Although between these thoughts of determination and goals I found myself slipping to sleep.

……..

..Cold.. However what I expected would be a good, at least twelve hour sleep (I could easily doze off for a whole day, given the chance) was cut short by several hours as I found my form, still on the bed, uncovered by the duvet by now and slightly colder than I’d been a few hours ago, and the bridge of my nose slightly dewy- Of course the idea of dew sprouting from the skin was preposterous but it felt that way. It would take a good few minutes for me to understand what had happened, as my eyes slowly began to open- -Oh. He’d gone to the bathroom, surely- However with the man in question standing near the doorway of my bathroom by the sink (A small en suite- several times smaller than my own room) I could only just make out his figure in the vivid light (Or at least, having been so used to the darkness of sleep, it was horribly vivid to my untrained eyes) and I, being with him for so long, could easily say that something was wrong. A nightmare, perhaps? I’d have liked to say that only children had them but I had them sometimes- So I couldn’t say anything.

Kicking off the rest of whatever duvet was left on me I’d slowly move my way off the bed and would gaze at the now bright light of my alarm clock which read an adamant 02:14. The sound of the tap running coming to my ears I’d then peel myself off the bed and raise, my form, wearing shorts and a tshirt, making its way to my en suite- Being such a small room, however, it only took a matter of moments before I could fully see the contents of my bathroom, although blobs of white disturbed my vision from the sudden sense of light that penetrated my pupils. ”..Hey-” I’d say softly as I’d slink in the room and from behind, wrap my arms around his waist, now uncovered by his shirt. ”..I’ll stay up with you.” there was no going against my word- It was law by now. Of course- moreso perhaps it was just me sympathizing with him- I’d been the victim of several nightmares in the past, and I knew that at times, you just wanted someone to be awake by you after suffering from one. However- What he was dreaming about I could but guess as horrific- Not many things got to him, but the past few months had been stressful- And I understood that. Whatever boundaries that needed to be leapt would be leapt together, and if he ever found himself slowing down- I’d follow suit.

Still holding my position behind him, my head would rest on his left shoulder blade, peeking across the side by some degrees as the black tendrils of my hair moulded softly with his own white- I had all the time in the world for him. Even if I was half-asleep at the moment.

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[Kaeor]

If anything, all I wanted now was a pleasant night. It was depressing that I had escaped the trials and tribulations of a war physically only to be attacked mentally. I had hoped that all the suffering that I was chosen to endure would quickly fade once I was back. Yet father time proved relentless in his claims of humans. But even more so it was paramount that I keep this concealed from Areru. I had already done enough in her name and returned home. The last thing that I wanted her to find out was th-

'What?'

The soft 'hey' from her was enough to make me subside my current thoughts. If there was anyone more relentless than father time, then it was that girl right there. I didn't need to turn around to see her figure dangling at the entrance as reflected by the mirror. For once I was at a loss of words, having been caught in my actions. Even though they were innocent, they weren't something that I planned to reveal if she hadn't noticed it. My mind ordered me to dismiss her. However, my mouth refused to open in order to do so. The lithe arms of the kunoichi wrapped around my waist in that of a soft embrace.

"..I’ll stay up with you.”

[/u]

She was truly amazing. But I felt as if this was a problem that I had to handle by myself. "No. It's something I'll have to get over on my own." The words were quick and swift. My hands hovered and pressed against her own hands around me. But even then the sickening in my chest began to flee with her attached to me. Maybe I had been gone too long from her? After all, she was the best remedy for any situation I had before. Had I turned more self reliant?

"Yes. I mean... Yes. I'd like that."

I spattered like some silly school kid. I don't know what was wrong with me to deny her so quickly. After all, this was my future wife I was talking about. "But if you're sleepy you can rest. I'll be fine right here. I'm certain." I reasoned lightly turning around to face her as I clung to her.

It was weird how she always made my storms go away.

"I wonder, why do I need you so much?~"

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[Areru]

With my arms still wrapped softly around him silence would cover the both of us for a few moments before he began to speak, negating the offer I’d given him which- I wasn’t angry about by far- But I hadn’t expected him to say that to say the very least. However, I had learned of the trials he’d been through over the past few months and I expected myself that it would only be understandable if he did have trouble sleeping perhaps because of the changes that would now face him being back home- But I was prepared to help him through it, even if he tried to pull away at first. However his words were soon made contrast with what he said next, as he maybe tried to clear up what he’d past said in an attempt to reconcile with what life we had before he left. Although I was aware of what he’d said before this, I’d give him a soft smile unlike the sharp and perhaps slightly menacing grins that I’d usually give everyone- ”…..” resting my head against his neck for a few moments, I’d keep it there for a few moments before shifting it again.

"But if you're sleepy you can rest. I'll be fine right here. I'm certain."

"I'd rather make sure you're alright- I can easily catch up on sleep, you know that.”

Of course I wasn’t going to do what he suggested that I do if I was too tired- I did enjoy a good sleep but nothing compared when it came to wanting to make sure that he was alright. I could easily take a nap in the middle of the day tomorrow in order to boost my energy levels, surely. Right now it would be selfish and thoughtless for me to go back and sleep while he so obviously hung in my bathroom with something on his mind that troubled him. I knew that I couldn’t help heal everything but if my words and actions could make him feel a little bit better, then that was all that I asked for. As he turned, I’d find my bright blue eyes looking at him as I looked at his face, almost as if I was trying to read his mind- My ability of sensory allowed me to detect lies- But unfortunately, mind-reading wasn’t one of my skills- But having been together for quite some time now, I knew that something was up with him.

However what he said next, perhaps a rhetorical question, it would nonetheless cause me to smile as even I paused in my words for a few moments, attempting to think of what to say- I wasn’t really that sure myself but then again there wasn’t an easy answer to questions like these. With him in my arms (Different to the norm, as usually it was my thin figure that was held in his) I’d shrug slightly and visibly with the smile- Now turned grin, still on my face. ”God knows why.” I’d say with the grin still plastered- Of course I wasn’t insinuating that he didn’t need me, but moreso that he was obviously my superior and that really- In my own mind anyhow, I figured that he could do much better with perhaps a stronger, slightly prettier woman- But I was sure that all people thought that sometimes. And if it did come to the chance that Kaeor did go off with someone else, I’d smack the bitch in the face. I’d then lean in slightly and kiss the bridge of his nose a single time before drawing back and looking at him again;

”I thought it was only girls who said cute, meaningful things like that.” I’d say, some banter to at least try and bring maybe a bit of laughter to his life at this lonely hour. But surely from his journeys to try and get me cured of the illness that had plagued me day-in day-out, I figured that he’d missed me- It had been quite a long time and to come back, maybe he’d thought about the relationship that we had? Of course I didn’t plan on giving him up any time soon- I never planned on doing that, and I hoped that it would never happen- However with the sharp words he’d emitted just a minute or so ago having come to light, it wasn’t as if I was wondering if he still loved me, it was just that I wasn’t sure about what he was thinking about at the moment. Of course I did know how different he could be when around other people and really; I was glad that I managed to see the side of him. The grey-haired shinobi now in my arms was quite an interesting person, even I could say that. While he'd been tarnished with blood relentlessly several times in the past, he was a different person with me. And I loved him. Placing different amounts of pressure on my leg, one then the other, I'd rock the both of us from side-to-side slowly as I held him, as my most comforting voice began to speak.

”Everything will be alright now, Kaeor.”
My eyes, still looking at him, would take on an even softer appearance.
”I promise"

"And I will do anything to make sure of it.”

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[Kaeor]

And just like that I perfectly predicted her. Now that something was troubling me and it was known, she wouldn't go to sleep for the life of me. We were one, so I could only guess that when I felt pain she did also. That was how strong our unity truly was. She remained their in the midst of my pool of silence, holding my as if I was some child. It wasn't like I didn't like it though...

Nonetheless, she had given a answer to the somewhat rhetorical question I brought up. It wasn't like I expected such so I was caught vastly off guard. But I could have sworn that anything that came out of her mouth was undeniably cute. I couldn't have asked for a firmer and more sturdy support in a woman that I loved. Especially after coming back to her out of the thin air that I vanished from. She had pointed out that my question was feminine and a little bit too cute to come from the brawn of a man. It wasn't everyday a girl got lucky enough to acquire a man with brain and brawn. But fortunately enough, Areru had been at the right place at the right time. "I guess I'm a little bit more than you can predict." I responded, unable to stop myself from joining her in laughter. She always knew how to brighten me up somewhat. And ever since I left, I had been craving her like some sort of addiction. It was almost as if now that I had her, I wasn't extremely sure what to do with her first.

Like a babe, she rocked me back and forth doing her best to reinforce her love. It truly didn't need to be reinforced, but this girl was lovely if you hadn't noticed. Her words were gentle as she promised that all would be well and alright. It was something that Kaeor knew ever since she had found herself barging inside the bathroom. With that done, his hands would grab her and lift her small body with ease. The two would change places as Areru would become near the equivalent of him in height. With the help of the sink of course as I placed her up there. She was everything I needed and she made any hurt I experienced temporary.

Maybe she was the cure to these bad dreams and anything else I experienced? My had already intertwined with her own, evident of my happiness as I stood there. But with a tug, I'd pull her closer to me. A gentle tease that would force her to come towards me for a kiss. Maybe it was her that I needed to confide in physically to restore the peace I had?

Insane, maybe. But then again who was arguing?

[Areru]

His response was mixed with the laughter that I had been waiting to hear, and so- I was left quite content that I had managed to make him do that. Placing my head on his shoulder once more I’d keep him close and continue my rocking – I was aware that he was either upset or at the worst disturbed by something, so I was just trying my best to soothe him. It wasn’t often that he was usually in this position with me being the dominant one per se, but then again he hadn’t been here for a while. ”……” silence enveloped the both of us once more as I’d keep rocking him him from side to side slowly, the only sound being that of our breathing- Or, moreso his, as I was always known for breathing very silently- In my childhood my brothers had sometimes been shocked thinking I had died in my sleep through the shallow breaths that I took- But that was just me.

With that done, his hands would grab her and lift her small body with ease. The two would change places as Areru would become near the equivalent of him in height. With the help of the sink of course as I placed her up there.

Suddenly feeling two strong hands pressed strangely gently against my waist, as my field of vision soon rose a little bit, I soon became aware through my sleepy eyes that I was being picked up, only to be placed on the bathroom sink. Of course with this new height advantage I was able to see at least a little bit more, and as my skin pressed against the gold porcelain of the sink itself, I’d shiver a little- But otherwise I was fine, and noticing that I was now perhaps a little more than eye level with Kaeor himself, I’d grin a little bit, having understood his reason for placing me on this pestal- As he drew in for a silent kiss I could only but respond to this in the same way- Although I feared perhaps just a little bit of falling off the ledge I was currently placed on.

”…….”

Silence wrapped around the both of us continually but the moments that we spent here meant so much. To be fair I was half awake and I was sure that Kaeor perhaps wasn’t exactly 100% right now, but the both of us had basic communication. The months with him away had been hell- I hadn’t heard much from him except for that one message from that Blonde woman and now that he was finally back- Back here with me, I’d noticed how much I’d taken for granted before he’d left. Cherishing him much more for the person that he was now my love for him had been reignited- Not that it had ever faltered, but to learn of the sacrifices he’d made in order to make sure that I didn’t suffer any longer was truly something admirable- And I couldn’t think of any way that I could give back to him in the manner that he had to me.

Drawing back from the kiss which we’d been involved in for the last few minutes, I’d then leave my eyes, which had once been closed, rest on his countenance again as the smallest of smiles graced my face. With him dominant once more, I’d nonetheless keep my hands on his torso to prevent me from slipping and to make that basic contact. ”..I missed you.” I’d murmur to him- Although I’d had a chance to tell him this hours ago when he’d returned, I had to repeat it. Drawing forwards once more I’d plant a single kiss on his lips and then thereafter on both of his cheeks and the bridge of his nose once more, drawing this pattern to a close once more by sealing it with a kiss on the lips. Of course- I’d been so long without him- But I had to respect the fact that he surely needed sleep as well- Although I want to spend so much more time with him now. ”Kaeor- ..what do you think about moving in?” I’d pause, my words maybe a little bit shaken up. ”-By that I mean me with you- I'll-”

I had always wondered about the time when I should move in with him- In the days before he’d gone I practically lived there anyhow so there wouldn’t be that much difference- I’d just have to convince my brothers that it was a good idea, which, although a challenge, surely wouldn’t be that hard if it came from my own mouth. Looking over at him with eyes that prayed he’d say yes to my request, it was obvious that I was hoping to take things further in that way- Or at least I was suggesting that we live together, of course, which wasn’t exactly something small. We’d been together for countless time now and seeing as my family had no say over what I wanted to do, I found it only right that I follow what I wanted- And that was to be closer to him. ”I’ll cook and clean and everything- So you won’t need to worry about that.” I wasn’t the best cook- That was for sure. But I was willing to learn. Leaning forwards again just slightly I'd end up with my head on his shoulder with my long black hair trailing down again with my arms wrapped around his middle, as I awaited an answer- Of course I knew he wouldn't say no since I knew he had been the one to propose it in the past- Or, I was hoping he wouldn't say no. Like a worried little schoolgirl I'd propose this idea, almost in fear of what he had to say next..!

"..How about it?"

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