Meaning.
Jan 6, 2013 22:03:53 GMT -8
Post by Chae on Jan 6, 2013 22:03:53 GMT -8
For a while, Chae had begun to realize that a unexpected secret amassed within the forefronts of his conscious. Regret. While he often denied feeling any kind of regret or remorse for his past actions from assassinating the Tsuchikage down to the Raikage, he felt quite the opponent during his more recent moments. He knew not if it'd been simply age, a matter of time, or Akira's trashing that rekindled his sense of regret, a sense that Chae buried deep within his soul and over the years, fought to keep it so.
Regardless, he found himself asking his own conscious questions he'd never even thought of asking it before, such as why he did commit unspeakable things without a second thought, why he drank so furiously, and why had his life seemed so directionless when there had been no money to gain or battle to fight. It plagued his mind, ate away at it vehemently, making up for the years his feelings and sense of regret and remorse remained dormant. With more questions than answers, he had no one to go to, at least not while he'd been outside of Kirigakure and Akira's wisdom, but truth be told, he hung in Akira's shadow for far too long.
He needed-wanted, to step out and find his own path instead of being a pup with no path to walk forward, only a ring to go in circles. He wanted answers, and he wanted them fast, so he thought. . ."A temple, good a place as any I guess."
He thought to himself, standing a the base of the temples stairs before ascending them one by one. With a single arm, and an armour-less body (dressed in standard civilian clothing), he reached the top where a set of dual doors rested firmly into the ground. Approaching it, he knelt down upon both knees and tilted his head forward."Not sure if anyone can hear me, but I guess it doesn't really matter. I. . .I've lost my way, not only as a shinobi, but as a human being. For my entire life I've done nothing but think for myself like some heartless, sinful beast, but lately, I've been overcome by guilt and regret. For the first time in my life, I've realized on my own that I need proper guidance. "