-rememberance
Aug 7, 2011 20:57:23 GMT -8
Post by くすり on Aug 7, 2011 20:57:23 GMT -8
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"I began to freeze as I watched him leave, his tracks covered by snow...
white snow."
Clear as sterling silver I remember. I remember the white snow that fell that day, freezing the ground over. I remember waking up to shivers, to his smile that warmed me. I remember not saying a word as he left me.
I remember...
With the war upon our doorsteps, things within Yukigakure were turbulent, everyone was on edge, including myself. Resources low, man power low, it wouldn't be soon till the Yukikage would have to start sending us out to the field of war. By us I meant genin. It was a futile fate to try and escape. It was going to happen soon, very soon. My brother Gene had been different, ever since his master-Asato left Yukigakure, what became of him was unknown, but something changed within Gene and although I didn't want to admit it, he'd leave too.
I could just feel it.
Asleep, I had awaken, groggy with weariness, my eyes flickered in and out of existence, until finally objects took shape within my shrouded room. Rubbing my eyes, I walked towards my window, and although frost and snow obscured its glass, I could see his figure, as if I was scrying through a magic glass. I could see how big my brothers back had gotten. I was the oldest between us two, we were half brother and sister, but our relationship suffered nothing. If anything we were closer than most. I didn't know where or when his path had strayed, but looking, I knew my words no longer got through to him.
They'd only pass through, unheard by even the ancient earth itself.
Pressing my hand upon the glass, I darted down the steps and out the door, holding my tears back as I felt my chest tighten. Holding my hand to my heart, I could do nothing but outstretch my arm, and reach for that of which I'd loved. My grasp however would not reach far enough, it would not squeeze tight enough. It was no longer big enough to hold onto him. Without a word I only watched him walk forward, vanishing into the wild ivory storm. He'd vanish from my sights and his footsteps covered by the snow.
Iv'e never been at ease with myself ever since. I regretted not stopping him, not questioning him, I couldn't manage words that black and white night, I couldn't decide. I knew why he left, at least I had a good guess, but the consequences for what he did were great, and I couldn't follow. Not as a shinobi of Yukigakure. Our mother had long ago passed, and my own father in his death bed. I couldn't lose what family I had left, so I made up my mind. I'd follow him, even to the edge of the earth, and if he plummeted into the nothingness that awaited, I without hesitation would dive into the abyss.
I had etched a cross into my own Hi-ate, and began my journey to find him. I had two lads, Asato his master, and of course himself. I had a long to go, but I'd find him. He was my little brother, and for him I knew I could let it all go, abandon it all without regret. Letting him go was my mistake that night, and I accepted it whole-heartedly. Just as he, I left upon a snowy night, my homeland behind me, I set my sights upon the future, my mission. With the war still going on, it was hard to gather intel on either Asato or Gene, but my journey found itself at an even bigger halt once it ended.
The world was ravaged, leads destroyed, possibilities hidden away. Its been six months since my search had started and spending all that time looking for him within Mizu no kuni, I felt it was time to move on, move on and expand my views. For now he was out of my grasp, out of my reach, but hope would not leave me. Looking out, I pulled my hood down, and walked forward. My journey had yet to truly start, that was, until now!
"Gene..."
