Aftermath; Afterthoughs [P]
Nov 21, 2011 19:41:25 GMT -8
Post by Shinryu on Nov 21, 2011 19:41:25 GMT -8
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellspacing,0,true][atrb=cellpadding,0px,true][atrb=style, background-image: url(http://i62.photobucket.com/albums/h99/houndoomXdelta/de.png); width: 500px; -moz-border-radius: 20px 20px 20px 20px; border-radius: 20px 20px 20px 20px; border: 1px dashed #000000][style=font-family: arial black; color: #efefc6; font-size: 15px; text-transform: uppercase; text-align: center; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 8px; text-shadow: 1px 0px 0px #000000, 1px 1px 0px #000000, -1px 0px 0px #000000, 0px 1px 0px #000000, -1px 1px 0px #000000, 0px -1px 0px #000000;] Old habits reappear[/style][style=font-family: arial black; color: #c5c590; font-size: 12px; letter-spacing: 5px; margin-top: -5px; text-align: center; margin-bottom: 10px]Fighting the fear of fear[/style] [style=font-family: verdana; font-size: 10px; background-color: #000000; text-align: justify; margin-top: 5px; color: #464646]♙words : WORD COUNT; ♙tags: PEOPLE; ♙lyrics: Frayed Ends of Sanity by Metallica;[/style][style=background-color: #414141; color: #000000; padding: 2px; padding-left: 5px; width: 450px; margin-top: 5px; font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; -moz-border-radius: 10px 10px 0px 0px; border-radius: 10px 10px 0px 0px; text-align: justify; letters-spacing: 2px;]Growing conspiracy, everyone's after me[/style][style=background-color: #111111; padding: 5px; width: 447px; opacity: 0.7; text-align: justify; font-family: verdana; font-size: 10px; color: #bcbc82;] "This is insane..." I walked the backstreets of the Blast City, ravaged by the waves of destruction that my nation had unleashed. Houses had burned to the ground, much like my own had. Countless deaths had occurred, both civillian and shinobi, and for the most part, the capital of the Land of Earth lay in ruins. I walked through an alley, and though the day was still young, dark plumes of thick black smoke threatened to block out the sky. The morose colouring was more than enough to drag my conscience to the depths of darkness, my mind swirling around the thoughts of what we had done, and of what I was now a part of... And perhaps I was paying less attention than I should have... But at that point, I almost welcomed death... Was I truly no better than those who had attempted to destroy me now? Is this what being a ninja was about? I took a look around to either end of the alley, before seating myself back first to the wall of one of the few buildings that still stood. Was this really what my career was supposed to boil down to? Killing the innocent and waging war on those who were undeserving, all in the name of being "the necessary evil?" It felt like one big excuse to murder and maim. Kouketsu seemed to think it was an honourable enough task, but what honor was to be found in this? He truly thought himself a martyr, becoming that which would bring everyone else together against him through their combined hate and pain. It was foolish. Suffering may bind them so long as they have an enemy, but then what? What would become of their children, and their children's children? What would happen when new prejudices sprung up? When inequalities came about? I rested my forehead in my palm as I tried to imagine how it was possible that anything good could come out of this. There seemed to be nothing on the horizon but more deaths, countless more innocents becoming nothing more than statitistics quoted in history lessons. And even then, what if I was wrong? What if Kouketsu was right about all of this? I sighed and balled up my fists, slamming them into the walls behind me. It was so goddamn frustrating! Whose side was I supposed to be on? And how was I supposed to understand what was right and what was wrong? It was driving me mad! I knew I disagreed with Kouketsu's ways, but what if I was just too naive to believe that there was any other way? What if there was no real way to lasting peace, only temporary bonds? What if... I contemplated all of the possibilities as I sat there, my head curled up in my hands. The soft patter of raindrops began to fall, and it was hardly long before I felt the cold of the rain starting to soak into my clothes. Nothing seemed to make sense anymore... I only knew that killing those that didn't deserve it wasn't what I wanted to do... [/style][style=background-color: #414141; color: #000000; padding: 2px; padding-right: 5px; width: 450px; font-family: calibri; font-size: 11px; -moz-border-radius: 0px 0px 10px 10px; border-radius: 0px 0px 10px 10px; text-align: right; letters-spacing: 2px;]Frayed ends of sanity; hear them calling me![/style][style=font-family: verdana; font-size: 10px; background-color: #000000; text-align: center; margin-top: 5px; color: #464646]♙notes: NOTES GO HERE;[/style]credit to ZETTA! of LS & BTN |