Confessions; part two [P]
Jan 19, 2012 23:33:46 GMT -8
Post by Areru on Jan 19, 2012 23:33:46 GMT -8
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To hear that his own day had gone well was more than I could ask for at the moment. Sometimes he’d come back a bit shaken up- But I was sure that today had been kind to him, or at least from the things that he said it didn’t sound as if he had any disposal to take care of. Perhaps in that small time space my mind had rendered itself blank, but soon after hitting reality again I found myself feeling the same way unsettled as I had been for the past few hours now. ”Just for the record- No.” I’d tell him with a weak smile in regards to his infidelity claim as I’d zoomed across the room, putting things back- To hear that he’d bought the new candy that I’d taken a liking to a few days ago was lovely- But I didn’t’ feel like it right now- All the sugar in it- It wasn’t one of the things that I figured I’d agree with right now- So I’d leave it for later. Moments after rising from my place I soon found arms settling around my thin frame, although the words that he spoke weren’t ones that I’d expected, in fact, as he spoke them, I simply leaned back a little, and looked to where he was indicating."You know you put the onions in the wrong cabinet dear."”..Ah, really? I’m sorry- It’s just-”
My mind was scrambled at the moment as I tried to get myself to find a way to explain to Kaeor of what I feared was wrong- But by the things that he was saying, small little details to ask questions about, I was concerned as to if he had already noticed that there was something wrong. Usually I could pass things like this off without being worried or at least not showing it, but this- I co- ”……!” without warning I was suddenly locked in the kiss, and I knew- I knew what would come next. I’d been in a rush from the moment that I was in the bathroom and to seeing him here, and I had made the mistake of not brushing my teeth- Perhaps for a slight moment that our lips locked I was rendered washed out in appearance as I knew that it was all over, and I’d have to tell him now. I was a pretty calm person usually so to see me like this was a rare sight, even for Kaeor. As he parted the kiss quite quickly after it was initiated, I closed my eyes, expecting the worst to be said- I trusted him not to be mad at me but the sheer reason behind my sickness, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to reveal it- He’d worked so hard to prevent it happening again, and to find out that I could possibly be inflicted again- I felt so bad, even if I wasn’t the one in control of it- Opening my eyes, I’d shakily look towards his.
And he questioned- Asking a simple question. I knew the answer- We both knew it but as soon as he finished speaking, I found myself haphazardly in floods of tears with my teeth biting down as soft as I could on the inside of my mouth to prevent it from happening- But it didn’t halt it. ”K-kaeor, I-” I struggled to get words out simply because I’d been worked up and whatever I did say took at least a bit longer than normal to pronounce correctly, and it sounded shaken. ”I’m s-so sorry! I-I think-” there would be a pause as I gathered what little courage was left in me, my eyes turning away from his own as I prepared to say the next part of my words; I couldn’t face up to telling him, but, coughing a single time to clear my throat and to help compose myself and whatever I’d say next, I’d then take a deep breath; Calm. ”I thought and thought but- I feel so sick-” it took me a good few minutes to say this before finally tearing up at the end which made my words maybe a little undecipherable but, I then soon gave up trying and gave him one look before burying my head in to his shoulder, still feeling the brunt of earlier. His arms soon feeling tight around me I’d then wriggle myself free- Only for the sake of not vomiting all over him- He didn’t deserve that.
But I felt ailing- My head was pounding and had begun moreso after having spilled my thoughts to Kaeor, practically feeling my heart beat on the sides of my head. Raising my arms somewhat so that they positioned on either hip, I’d then exhale out the feeling of nausea that had hit me, eyes closed as my head pointed towards the floor. I’d stay like this for a moment or so before then turning my gaze back towards the white haired shinobi again. I needed him to understand and the last thing I wanted was for him to get upset- But I knew that it would surely happen. I hadn’t felt this ill in several years now, and it was an unwelcome feeling to say the least. Pulling up a seat for myself I’d then sit on it as I recomposed my balance, my gaze still on Kaeor as if I was begging him for forgiveness, or desperately seeking him to understand and not feel too taken aback. There had been other things that I’d thought of which explained my sudden illness but- I failed to believe it- And right now I was so worked up about the reason that I had set my mind on that I couldn’t even begin to think of other explanations for this.Running my right hand through the inky black hair that I sported, I'd lean back in the chair, my eyes closed as the stressed pink on my cheeks soon dissapeared and gave way to the ghostly white which I had become accustom to over the past few hours.
"I don't know for sure but- I think it may be back-"
I needed to know how he'd take it.